girl in ASL class

11:49 PM – Stash: =) let’s be young men together again.
11:49 PM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I still feel young yet nothing seems fun anymore
11:50 PM – Stash: =) here’s what i learned.
11:50 PM – Stash: The world is a boring place.
Life is boring if there’s no conflict, thus the human drama and people wish to fight, have pain, get into situations where things are sticky. It makes things more interesting, more memorable, worth more.
That is not to say that Peace is an impossible goal, it’s just that humans do not wish for it, they wish for fun.
aand if you are partial to peace, then you are bound to be bored. My suggestion: play the game and fight through conflicts like the rest of the world, but know it is only a game, set up by humans to pass their lives by.
11:51 PM – Stash: in other words.. be shallow like everyone else, but know that you are not who you make yourself out to seem.
12:07 AM – Stash: OH
12:07 AM – Stash: and dude
12:07 AM – Stash: i just found out that i scored alot better than my sister on the SAT.
12:07 AM – Stash: which bugs me
12:07 AM – Stash: considering my school grades are dirt terrible.
12:08 AM – Stash: why am i smarter?
12:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: <.<
12:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you got lucky 🙂
12:08 AM – Stash: i certainly don't deserve to be.
12:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Did I tell you I didnt get into UCLA because I didnt take SAT2?
12:08 AM – Stash: LOL
12:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and now they dont even require it
12:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: that bugs me
12:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
12:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: they made the requirement easier <.<
12:08 AM – Stash: lmfao dudee.
12:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: took off the part that fucked me over
12:08 AM – Stash: you know what
12:09 AM – Stash: you should transfer to UCLA.
12:09 AM – Stash: i'ma transfer to CAL.
12:09 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Nah I was gonna transfer to UCLA
12:09 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but its too much trouble and idk if its worth it
12:09 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: my grades are not good enough thats for sure
12:09 AM – Stash: =) well i suppose thats true, and you dont really know what you want to do.
12:09 AM – Stash: I know i wanna Teach.
12:09 AM – Stash: and i know that graduating from CAL would definitely help.
12:10 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: You know I thought about it
12:10 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and I'd be a great teacher
12:10 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but I refuse to do it!
12:10 AM – Stash: Hell yes you would.
12:10 AM – Stash: LOL
12:10 AM – Stash: wtf why?
12:10 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Because im weird
12:12 AM – Stash: Critical Reading 480 math 570 writ 410.
12:12 AM – Stash: those are my sister's scores.
12:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Hmm I did worse
12:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Or not
12:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I dont remember
12:12 AM – Stash: lets see.
12:12 AM – Stash: that'd be 1460
12:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I got 1400
12:13 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: yeah I did worse
12:13 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 1420 or something
12:13 AM – Stash: mm.. now mine..
12:13 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: really high on the math part though
12:13 AM – Stash: Critical Reading – 600 Math – 540 Writing – 560.
12:13 AM – Stash: total of 1700
12:13 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thats really good
12:14 AM – Stash: aand dude, i remember I didn't study AT ALL.
12:14 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: ha
12:14 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I fell asleep during the SAT
12:14 AM – Stash: i mean, i stayed up the night of watching Justin.tv
12:14 AM – Stash: loll
12:14 AM – Stash: i stayed awake at least.
12:14 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: it was so boring
12:14 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I dont understand why it had to be in the morning
12:14 AM – Stash: =) well at least I have power of will.
12:14 AM – Stash: uhh
12:14 AM – Stash: cause its like 6 hours?
12:14 AM – Stash: and people need to eat.
12:15 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: idk man <.< it was too early for me
12:15 AM – Stash: loll
12:15 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and on a saturday?
12:15 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: bleh
12:15 AM – Stash: ahaha
12:15 AM – Stash: but damn..
12:15 AM – Stash: why am i smart.
12:15 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
12:15 AM – Stash: thats a question that bugs the shit outta me.
12:15 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im convinced Im smart
12:15 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im really not
12:15 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 😀
12:16 AM – Stash: =) at the very least, you are Good, that matters more.
12:16 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im good?
12:16 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: dude Im terrible
12:16 AM – Stash: those in pain are good. You are in pain. You are Good.
12:16 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: <.
12:19 AM – Stash: bitch.
12:19 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: exactly right
12:19 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: all for nothing
12:19 AM – Stash: ahahaha
12:19 AM – Stash: well dudee
12:19 AM – Stash: you’re smart.
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 4.2
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: who the fuck
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: gets
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 4.2
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: <.<
12:20 AM – Stash: what AP course did you take?
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: art
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: twice
12:20 AM – Stash: WTF is AP Art.
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you just
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: produce
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and then you send them in at the end of the year
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and they give you a score
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i got a 5
12:20 AM – Stash: … Yeah, that'd do it.
12:20 AM – Stash: holy balls.
12:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and A in the class
12:21 AM – Stash: i only got a 3 on my AP Pysch.
12:21 AM – Stash: Dude, thats it.
12:21 AM – Stash: Go be a fucking art major.
12:21 AM – Stash: remember what i told you
12:21 AM – Stash: it'll be playing the game, while knowing its a game.
12:21 AM – Stash: Now go.
12:21 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Honestly I dont enjoy it anymore
12:21 AM – Stash: WHAT.
12:21 AM – Stash: why?
12:21 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I ran outa
12:21 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: stuff
12:21 AM – Stash: that's not a good thing, try to fix it.
12:21 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: in my head
12:21 AM – Stash: psh
12:21 AM – Stash: thats a lie.
12:22 AM – Stash: you just feel like the stuff in your head won't be good enough now.
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: the only thing I enjoy now
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: is basketball
12:22 AM – Stash: cause you've done so much good stuff.
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: even video games are boring
12:22 AM – Stash: Videogames are always boring.
12:22 AM – Stash: except for old css.
12:22 AM – Stash: that was fun.
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im slowly
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: wasting my life
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: awayyyyyy
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: even
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: music
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: sucks
12:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: now
12:22 AM – Stash: go back to "I'm Infinite"
12:22 AM – Stash: that's always good.
12:23 AM – Stash: and of course..
12:23 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: dude I listen to all these songs
12:23 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and I envy them
12:23 AM – Stash: "I LOVE YOU, YOU LOVE ME, WE'RE A HAPPY FAMILY"
12:23 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: being able to write their hearts out
12:23 AM – Stash: =) why can't you?
12:23 AM – Stash: or Draw your heart out.
12:24 AM – Stash: I would like to say i'm one of the ones who can "write their hearts out"
12:24 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: yeah
12:24 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I envy you too
12:24 AM – Stash: =) i'm miserable, don't envy me.
12:24 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: bleh
12:24 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: im miserable
12:24 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: <.<
12:24 AM – Stash: mm..
12:24 AM – Stash: Well, it's all a game.
12:24 AM – Stash: just to pass the time.
12:24 AM – Stash: there are those who play who do not know there are merely players.
12:25 AM – Stash: and those who play who know it's just for fun.
12:25 AM – Stash: and then we die.
12:25 AM – Stash: and our lives only matter if we did something with it.
12:25 AM – Stash: so, to be interesting, to not be bored, boring, or dull.
12:26 AM – Stash: You must play the game, or die miserable.
12:26 AM – Stash: if there is a fact of life, i will make that It.
12:26 AM – Stash: so, let's talk about you, and who you are, and who you can play As.
12:26 AM – Stash: your character.
12:26 AM – Stash: your "Stats"
12:26 AM – Stash: =)
12:26 AM – Stash: You can draw, that much is certain.
12:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I woudnt say
12:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im an artist
12:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im a drawer
12:27 AM – Stash: =) I would.
12:27 AM – Stash: well let's put it this way.
12:27 AM – Stash: you see the world differently.
12:27 AM – Stash: as an artist would.
12:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I should be an architect
12:27 AM – Stash: =) how are your math scores?
12:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but thats too much work
12:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: im pretty good at math
12:28 AM – Stash: Ah, and there's another stat.
12:28 AM – Stash: Analytically Smart.
12:28 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: math is easy
12:28 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you follow a rule
12:28 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you get a definite answer
12:28 AM – Stash: =) and that's why we're opposites. I hate Definite Rules.
12:28 AM – Stash: I love english for that very reason. Meanings change. Abstract.
12:28 AM – Stash: but, back to you.
12:29 AM – Stash: Another stat, you like the Seen.
12:29 AM – Stash: everything is concrete.
12:29 AM – Stash: and because of that, you can draw it, without having it change up on you.
12:29 AM – Stash: You see as an artist does.
12:29 AM – Stash: the memory of the moment captured onto paper with pencil.
12:30 AM – Stash: those stats seem a little stacked, don't you think? =)
12:30 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Lol
12:30 AM – Stash: so then, the only question is.. Whether or not you decide to level up.
12:30 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I have that same problem playing RO
12:30 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: LOL
12:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im pretty damn good at what I do
12:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but my laziness prevents me from advnacing
12:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: advancing
12:31 AM – Stash: =) well then, let's break down "Laziness"
12:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: the internet
12:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: ruined
12:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: my life
12:31 AM – Stash: ahahah
12:31 AM – Stash: interesting..
12:31 AM – Stash: how?
12:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I play games
12:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: instead of
12:31 AM – Stash: access to porn? games? cats in funny positions?
12:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: do hw
12:32 AM – Stash: mm.
12:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: when Im bored
12:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I seek things to kill time
12:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: on the internet
12:32 AM – Stash: i do too.
12:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: when I can be
12:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: doing
12:32 AM – Stash: now let's break that down..
12:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: something productive
12:32 AM – Stash: it gives you the option of doing something else, the internet.
12:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I'd rather sit and absorb than produce
12:32 AM – Stash: Ease of use then.
12:32 AM – Stash: or rather, Ease of Enjoyment.
12:33 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: nah its just
12:33 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: fillers
12:33 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I convince myself to waste time
12:33 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I try to stay away doing nothing
12:33 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I dont go to bed late because Im busy
12:33 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I go to bed late because I never liked going to sleep
12:33 AM – Stash: i knoww, and that's the thing. Why you do things matters.
12:34 AM – Stash: You don't quite know Why you want to waste time.
12:34 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Well
12:34 AM – Stash: there are many possible answers.
12:34 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: For one, its easier
12:34 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Its not hard to waste time
12:35 AM – Stash: well, remember what i told you.
12:35 AM – Stash: Sure, it's easy to waste time.
12:35 AM – Stash: but Why do you want to waste it? Time is precious isn't it?
12:35 AM – Stash: but then that's the answer.
12:35 AM – Stash: Time is not precious to you.
12:35 AM – Stash: or rather, Your time is not precious.
12:35 AM – Stash: and that can be broken down further.
12:36 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im
12:36 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: spoiled?
12:36 AM – Stash: Your do not value your time as precious because you do not value Yourself as precious.
12:36 AM – Stash: As if your time can be wasted, because you are a waste.
12:36 AM – Stash: Call it Inadequacy, but more accurately,
12:36 AM – Stash: call it a denial of labels.
12:37 AM – Stash: as soon as you do something, you are a Doer.
12:37 AM – Stash: As soon as you write, your are a writer.
12:37 AM – Stash: as soon as you draw, you are a drawer.
12:37 AM – Stash: as soon as you produce art, you are an artist.
12:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: with stuff inside?
12:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: drawer is a wierd word
12:37 AM – Stash: it is. but it's English. =)
12:37 AM – Stash: but again, that's the fact right there.
12:37 AM – Stash: it's also my own flaw.
12:37 AM – Stash: so i know it well.
12:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so by default drawer = artist?
12:38 AM – Stash: finee, that works.
12:38 AM – Stash: but not the point. =)
12:38 AM – Stash: think about it.
12:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I would like to consider myself an artist
12:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but my attributes say otherwise
12:38 AM – Stash: "Those who are bored are themselves boring."
12:38 AM – Stash: That is only half true, and very mean way to put it.
12:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im boring
12:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lmao
12:39 AM – Stash: What that means is, Those who feel boredom are those who do not Commit themselves to something Interesting.
12:39 AM – Stash: to something opposite of boring.
12:39 AM – Stash: We oppose conflict.
12:39 AM – Stash: We oppose rocking the boat.
12:39 AM – Stash: We are Go with the Flow.
12:39 AM – Stash: We are Peace Oriented.
12:39 AM – Stash: The problem with that is, peace is not what the rest of the world wants.
12:39 AM – Stash: We are Special beings, in that regard.
12:40 AM – Stash: unique, one of a kind, separate, alienated.
12:40 AM – Stash: that is also why we are so miserable.
12:40 AM – Stash: We do not wish to Be anything, because we can truly be Everything.
12:40 AM – Stash: Though, to be everything takes away the fun of trying for something.
12:40 AM – Stash: and that makes us boring.
12:40 AM – Stash: So, back to what i said waay earlier.
12:41 AM – Stash: The world is a boring place.
12:41 AM – Stash: The best way to make it fun, is to play the game of life.
12:41 AM – Stash: and the only way to Win, is to know your more than just a piece to be played.
12:41 AM – Stash: You're the Player.
12:42 AM – Stash: and thus ends my rationale.
12:42 AM – Stash: =)
12:42 AM – Stash: please tell me some of that made sense.
12:42 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: yeah
12:42 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: time out
12:42 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: do you think
12:42 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: this conversation would have the same turn out if we were not
12:42 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: typing?
12:43 AM – Stash: =) well, i'd certainly have a tougher time speaking it.
12:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: the internet
12:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: ruined
12:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: my
12:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: life
12:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I type faster than I talk.. there's something wrong with that
12:43 AM – Stash: cause i flow better with words.
12:43 AM – Stash: =) me too man.
12:43 AM – Stash: it's fine.
12:43 AM – Stash: it's just..
12:43 AM – Stash: our "Learner"
12:43 AM – Stash: some are Visual
12:43 AM – Stash: some are Audio
12:43 AM – Stash: some are Tactical.
12:43 AM – Stash: it's our Senses.
12:44 AM – Stash: and we're Visual.
12:44 AM – Stash: we see words
12:44 AM – Stash: we type in response.
12:44 AM – Stash: Visual Learners. Remember that.
12:44 AM – Stash: You are also an Artist.
12:44 AM – Stash: I don't want to use Tactical, sounds too army like.
12:44 AM – Stash: Touch oriented then.
12:45 AM – Stash: i'll be honest.
12:45 AM – Stash: i'll probably get lost if i tried to Say that to you.
12:45 AM – Stash: but if i Write, i can go back and follow my own thought process.
12:45 AM – Stash: which is very fraught with frightening figures.
12:46 AM – Stash: and difficult to follow at times.
12:46 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Hmmmmm
12:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Somehow Im looking at all of this from the wrong perspective
12:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I choose to focus
12:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: on the wrong things
12:49 AM – Stash: mm. That's Emotional Bias talking. You should try to be Objective.
12:49 AM – Stash: Though, i've learned that being Objective Alienates you as well.
12:50 AM – Stash: what exactly are you talking about wrong perspective right now?
12:50 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: idk
12:50 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I walk around
12:50 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thinking about
12:50 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: how I look with white laces on my shoes
12:52 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: completely irrelevant
12:53 AM – Stash: =) well i thought about that yesterday actually.
12:53 AM – Stash: white shines brightly with a grey background.
12:53 AM – Stash: almost as flashy as those who wear neon shoes.
12:53 AM – Stash: then i wondered, am i perhaps being too flashy?
12:53 AM – Stash: I wear grey specificially to avoid that.
12:53 AM – Stash: tame.
12:54 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: specificially
12:54 AM – Stash: LOL
12:54 AM – Stash: forgive me, too much typing makes me terrible at.. typing.
12:54 AM – Stash: Specifically.
12:54 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: specificially?
12:54 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Anyway
12:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thats exactly what I mean by
12:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thinking about the wrong things
12:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
12:55 AM – Stash: Distracted then? =)
12:55 AM – Stash: ADD?
12:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: very
12:55 AM – Stash: or Subtract?
12:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: OCD even
12:55 AM – Stash: mm.
12:55 AM – Stash: well that's probably the Artist Mentality.
12:55 AM – Stash: let me ask you something
12:55 AM – Stash: Those two go hand in hand, don't they? usually?
12:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Yeah
12:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: pretty much
12:55 AM – Stash: Awesome at Math, awesome at Arts, crafts, music, etc.
12:56 AM – Stash: we've all heard those Savants with difficulties.
12:56 AM – Stash: ADD
12:56 AM – Stash: OCD
12:56 AM – Stash: and they are awesome at stuff.
12:56 AM – Stash: you are one of those.
12:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Oh and
12:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I miss her
12:56 AM – Stash: It's your trade off, so to speak.
12:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: just thought you should know 🙂
12:56 AM – Stash: =) Thank you for telling me. but do you miss her less than you did before?
12:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Hmm
12:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: no
12:57 AM – Stash: mm. did something change?
12:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Mmmmmm
12:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: no
12:57 AM – Stash: LOL
12:57 AM – Stash: well you gotta give me SOMETHING to go on.
12:57 AM – Stash: whats the current situation like?
12:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Its amazing how many conclusions my mind can come across
12:57 AM – Stash: shes with your other friend right?
12:58 AM – Stash: =) again, that's your Genius at work.
12:58 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: situation is still the same
12:58 AM – Stash: Your spatial ability of mind.
12:58 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I just play tricks on myself to make things more complicated
12:58 AM – Stash: =) i've been doing that for the past 4 hours.
12:58 AM – Stash: lieing in bed.
12:58 AM – Stash: well lemme ask you.
12:59 AM – Stash: would you LIKE to hear about me?
12:59 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: depends on what Im going to hear
12:59 AM – Stash: cause i'm the kind of guy who has all sorts of things that he hides.
12:59 AM – Stash: uhh
12:59 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 😛
12:59 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: how am I supposed to know if Im going to like what Im going to hear
12:59 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: o_o
12:59 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: wtf am I talking about
1:00 AM – Stash: =) well then, would you like to hear me Rant then.
1:00 AM – Stash: about.. anything.
1:00 AM – Stash: or rather, would there be soemthing you wouldn't want me to rant about.
1:00 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Do you want to rant?
1:00 AM – Stash: well, i can rant without having someone to rant To, but it's always nice to have someone to tell whether or not you're crazy.
1:01 AM – Stash: back to my question, loaded with the assumption, You don't want me to rant if it's about girls or things that'll make you think about her, correct?
1:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: nah
1:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: whatever you want
1:02 AM – Stash: =) so I ask you, what changed? before you didn't want me to. Does that mean now you still don't want me to, but you feel it'd be unfair to create that taboo?
1:02 AM – Stash: or, perhaps you really have missed her less since we last mentioned her.
1:02 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Mmmmm
1:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Well
1:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I dont know
1:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Yeah
1:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Honest this time
1:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i dont know
1:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
1:03 AM – Stash: =) good.
1:03 AM – Stash: thats the right answer.
1:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I think that was the first honest "idk" i ever said
1:04 AM – Stash: =) the first of many, i'm sure.
1:04 AM – Stash: you are getting Better. after all.
1:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: You really think so?
1:04 AM – Stash: There are times when i wonder if i should instead pursure Psychology, seeing as how I can help people find their problems and get past them.
1:04 AM – Stash: I do.
1:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Feels worse to me
1:05 AM – Stash: =) it'll always get worse before it gets better.
1:05 AM – Stash: thats the confict.
1:05 AM – Stash: and that should also be the fun.
1:05 AM – Stash: anyway, let's first talk about my Eng professor.
1:05 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: is she hot?
1:05 AM – Stash: =)
1:05 AM – Stash: He, and no.
1:06 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: sorry
1:06 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: its a habit
1:06 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: inside joke rather
1:06 AM – Stash: I deliberately shied away from the pretty girl rant First. =) but I guess you're fine, i don't have to "Shelter" you.
1:06 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Ill try my best not to
1:06 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: reflect
1:06 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 🙂
1:06 AM – Stash: =) well here.
1:06 AM – Stash: My ASL
1:07 AM – Stash: American Sign Language class.
1:07 AM – Stash: 55A
1:07 AM – Stash: There was this girl.
1:07 AM – Stash: and during the class, the objective was to go outside and write down what you observe.
1:07 AM – Stash: and talk about it.
1:08 AM – Stash: I assume the point of the excercise was to see just how many things your ears are relied for.
1:08 AM – Stash: but anyway, i used my sight.
1:08 AM – Stash: I saw that this girl, has a ring on her left finger.
1:08 AM – Stash: oh, and yes, she was hot.
1:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: good i was just about to ask
1:08 AM – Stash: =)
1:08 AM – Stash: aand she seemed young too.
1:08 AM – Stash: far too young to be married.
1:08 AM – Stash: but i suppose she might be.
1:09 AM – Stash: it was then, that I started to wonder what kind of life she leads.
1:09 AM – Stash: The professor said, "please, poke your neighbor if they're not speaking up"
1:09 AM – Stash: Oh, and i forgot to mention, this professor, ASL, is Deaf, and uses Sign Language to Voicing Interpreters
1:10 AM – Stash: anyway, The hot girl hasn't said a word at all throughout entire class, or at least, not raised hands talking anyway.
1:10 AM – Stash: and her neighbor poked her.
1:10 AM – Stash: she laughed, i smiled.
1:10 AM – Stash: then I noticed.
1:10 AM – Stash: She was all alone.
1:10 AM – Stash: her neighbor was about 3 chairs away from her on the left
1:10 AM – Stash: and No one on her right
1:10 AM – Stash: there were rows deliberately spaced around her, almost as if people were afraid to be near her.
1:11 AM – Stash: I remember thinking that, when deciding where to sit, I deliberately avoided her. or at leeast, wasn't super close.
1:11 AM – Stash: then it's like, Shy girl, Hot, Alone.
1:11 AM – Stash: Ariel.
1:11 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Aw
1:12 AM – Stash: So I wondered, maybe this is who Ariel might grow up to be.
1:12 AM – Stash: and then I smiled, as I thought of Ariel and me being married.
1:12 AM – Stash: this girl did have a ring, after all.
1:12 AM – Stash: She was able to Love.
1:12 AM – Stash: and someone could love her.
1:12 AM – Stash: then my mind, cynical and tormented as it is, brought a diffrent conclusion.
1:13 AM – Stash: Maybe she is simply wearing the ring to get guys to stop talking to her.
1:13 AM – Stash: in which case, guys would simply talk with her because shes hot.
1:13 AM – Stash: or at least, shallow guys who only care about appearaces would.
1:13 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: shallow guys like me
1:13 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 🙂
1:14 AM – Stash: =) you like to make yourself out to be shallow, but you're really not.
1:14 AM – Stash: cause if you can call yourself shallow, you're not arrogant enough to be "Bad"
1:14 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: You wont believe how many girls I turned down because they werent hot
1:14 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: despite how well i get along with them
1:14 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: anyway
1:14 AM – Stash: =) would they be perfect for you otherwise?
1:14 AM – Stash: yeah, anyway. =)
1:14 AM – Stash: I wondered to myself
1:15 AM – Stash: Hot girls have it rough.
1:15 AM – Stash: Beauty is alienating, and almost a curse.
1:15 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: What
1:15 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: fuck that
1:15 AM – Stash: =)
1:15 AM – Stash: well think about it
1:15 AM – Stash: only if you're a little hot
1:15 AM – Stash: instead of a perfect ten.
1:15 AM – Stash: gorgeous.
1:16 AM – Stash: if you're perfect, the Good guys don't believe they can have you, and the arrogant guys can only want you for your looks
1:16 AM – Stash: if you're a 7-8, you're pretty much getting the whole range of guys.
1:16 AM – Stash: the good and the bad.
1:16 AM – Stash: of course, if you're a 4-5, you get trouble getting guys at all.
1:17 AM – Stash: and if you're a 1-3, well, i suggest doing some cardio.
1:17 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
1:17 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: good point
1:17 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but its no the 10 we're jealous of is it
1:17 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: <.<
1:17 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: its the 7~8
1:18 AM – Stash: =) I suppose guys could also be hot.
1:18 AM – Stash: in that manner
1:18 AM – Stash: perfect tens.
1:18 AM – Stash: but the thing that the guy has going for him, is..
1:18 AM – Stash: Girls, Good and Bad, don't have trouble using other criteria to like someone.
1:18 AM – Stash: they can judge based on something other than looks more easily.
1:19 AM – Stash: and thus, Guys have it lucky.
1:19 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Hot guys
1:19 AM – Stash: cause it's rare that a guy is a perfect 10 and a douche.
1:19 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Hmm good point
1:19 AM – Stash: =) a girl will approach a perfect ten guy, regardless of how they look.
1:19 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: hot guys are ot douches at all
1:19 AM – Stash: =)
1:19 AM – Stash: which goes back to something i said a LOOONG time ago.
1:20 AM – Stash: Hot people are Happy people.
1:20 AM – Stash: Happy people aren't douches to people for no reason.
1:20 AM – Stash: Happy people are likeable.
1:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: oh yeah of course
1:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: which is why it sucks
1:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: to not be hot
1:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im not saying its imposible to be happy
1:20 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but it sure is hard
1:21 AM – Stash: =) yeap. but for the girl at least, it's a lot more of a hassle.
1:21 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: sadly enough, i do care about how i look
1:21 AM – Stash: everyone does, it's human nature to want to look viable for mating.
1:21 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: oh and
1:21 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: sorry i have to reflect again
1:21 AM – Stash: no, please do.
1:21 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: melissa doesnt
1:21 AM – Stash: my story is almost over anyway.
1:21 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: wear make up
1:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: its another thing i miss
1:22 AM – Stash: =) well, you could always buy the make up for yourself? =P
1:22 AM – Stash: that was a joke, ha ha, you were supposed to laugh.
1:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: yeah
1:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
1:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but you know
1:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thats
1:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: rare
1:22 AM – Stash: =) it is.
1:22 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and i miss that
1:22 AM – Stash: people who are pretty without make up.
1:23 AM – Stash: well, Ariel wore make up. even though she'd look even more beautiful to me without it. Her belief that her appearance needs to be fixed is her inadequacy.
1:23 AM – Stash: aand it's part of her feeling like she's not good enough.
1:23 AM – Stash: Which is why she's broken.
1:24 AM – Stash: Which is why she's Kind, and which is why I like her.
1:24 AM – Stash: if she's not good enough, then she must constantly Do good and Look good.
1:24 AM – Stash: she is constantly giving to the homeless
1:24 AM – Stash: feeding em
1:24 AM – Stash: animal shelters
1:24 AM – Stash: etc etc.
1:24 AM – Stash: she is, Good.
1:25 AM – Stash: because of her feeling like she is not good enough.
1:25 AM – Stash: which is also why she wears make up.
1:25 AM – Stash: even though she'd look amazing without. =)
1:25 AM – Stash: but yeaah. I could be wrong, that's just my hunch.
1:25 AM – Stash: she could just wear it cause she's shallow.
1:26 AM – Stash: but prolly not. lol
1:26 AM – Stash: Anywaay.
1:26 AM – Stash: i guess my girl with the ring story is over.
1:26 AM – Stash: i'll prolly talk with her next week.
1:26 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Do
1:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: ah man
1:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so much to say
1:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: dont know where to start
1:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
1:27 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: don even know if i want to start
1:27 AM – Stash: =) i've learned it's more interesting, and thus less boring, if you have more to say, though that means there's more conflicts.
1:28 AM – Stash: the goal is to separate the conflicts from the pain.
1:28 AM – Stash: so that conflicts can be said and shared and enjoyed without feeling.. bad.
1:28 AM – Stash: it's also what keeps conversations going, and keeps away awkward silences.
1:28 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but you know
1:29 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: we are capable of exploring so many ideas
1:29 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: in a conversation like this
1:29 AM – Stash: srsly dude..
1:29 AM – Stash: we're so insane.
1:29 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but
1:29 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i wont even remember it the next day
1:29 AM – Stash: YUP.
1:29 AM – Stash: that's what copy and paste is for.
1:29 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and we relive the same thoughts
1:29 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thinking about the same thing over and over
1:29 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: wasting time
1:29 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: like I do
1:30 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: maybe I should write things down
1:30 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: holy shit
1:30 AM – Stash: =) Only if you know Why you are doing it. if you're trying to find an answer.
1:30 AM – Stash: DO IT dude, write it down, or type it.
1:30 AM – Stash: I got so many notepads with stuff.
1:30 AM – Stash: "Notepad" programs.
1:30 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I do too
1:30 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but I dont ever read them
1:30 AM – Stash: mm, i read em from time to time
1:30 AM – Stash: sometimes i just leave some open.
1:31 AM – Stash: to let my thoughts drift.
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you know what
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: instead of just that
1:31 AM – Stash: cause the things we think about are just brutally difficult to figure out.
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: ill start to
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: save these convos
1:31 AM – Stash: it's not goign to be easy.
1:31 AM – Stash: YES
1:31 AM – Stash: do it.
1:31 AM – Stash: i've been doing that. rofl
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: remind me ya?
1:31 AM – Stash: yeep
1:31 AM – Stash: i can give you some old ones, i have em. lol
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: cool
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but like
1:31 AM – Stash: but yeah. You and me dude, we can do great things together.
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: just as you were speaking
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: or
1:31 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: typing
1:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so many thoughts came across
1:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and now I dont even remember them
1:32 AM – Stash: =) If there was ever a Thought Keeper, i'd pay good money for it.
1:32 AM – Stash: I think I was the one who told you about that idea. =)
1:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i mean
1:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i can write
1:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: endlessly
1:32 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but it wouldnt mean anything
1:32 AM – Stash: i know.
1:32 AM – Stash: a thought is just..
1:33 AM – Stash: pure creation.
1:33 AM – Stash: doesn't have to be dumbed down into words.
1:34 AM – Stash: likewise, i'm sure in your mind, the thing you want to draw looks better in your head than it ever could on canvas.
1:34 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: sometimes
1:34 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but now
1:34 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: there isnt anything in my mind
1:34 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: that I would want to transfer onto paper
1:34 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: completely blank
1:34 AM – Stash: =) exactly, "that you would want to"
1:34 AM – Stash: you've lost the Want to.
1:34 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Well
1:34 AM – Stash: and we've already talked about why.
1:35 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lets just say
1:35 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: there isnt anything visual in my mind
1:35 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: right now
1:35 AM – Stash: =) well, you are the Savant, with many talents.
1:35 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: idk where they went
1:35 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I am distracted
1:35 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: by so many thoughts
1:36 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: hey thoughts are countable?
1:36 AM – Stash: helps to write em down.
1:36 AM – Stash: No
1:36 AM – Stash: you use Less
1:36 AM – Stash: not fewer.
1:36 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: many?
1:36 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: "many thoughts"?
1:36 AM – Stash: yes, Many. not More.
1:36 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so its
1:36 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: countable
1:36 AM – Stash: mm
1:36 AM – Stash: hang on lemme think.
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: did you mean
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: much
1:37 AM – Stash: One thought , two thoughts.
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Many thoughts
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: not
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Much thoughts
1:37 AM – Stash: yeah
1:37 AM – Stash: it's countable
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: fewer thoughts
1:37 AM – Stash: Fewer
1:37 AM – Stash: yep
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Woah
1:37 AM – Stash: "I find myself having fewer thoughts when I write it down onto paper"
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: honestly thoughts shouldnt be countable
1:37 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lmao
1:38 AM – Stash: srsly.
1:38 AM – Stash: they're so abstract
1:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: cocoa puff
1:38 AM – Stash: tripped me up
1:38 AM – Stash: Cheerios.
1:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: or
1:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: captain crunch
1:38 AM – Stash: CapnCrunch.
1:38 AM – Stash: never full captain
1:38 AM – Stash: always Hungry for more.
1:38 AM – Stash: =)
1:38 AM – Stash: wordplay.
1:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: <.<
1:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lmao is that how you remember how to spell
1:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: dessert
1:38 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and desert?
1:39 AM – Stash: LOL
1:39 AM – Stash: well that doesn't quite work..
1:39 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thats how I remember it 😛
1:39 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you always want more dessert
1:39 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so more S's
1:39 AM – Stash: OH
1:39 AM – Stash: yes
1:39 AM – Stash: yeah
1:39 AM – Stash: not never
1:39 AM – Stash: it IS
1:39 AM – Stash: yep
1:39 AM – Stash: i do that
1:39 AM – Stash: =D
1:39 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and when you're
1:39 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: deserted
1:39 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you're left
1:39 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: alone
1:39 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 1 S
1:39 AM – Stash: =(
1:39 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 🙂
1:39 AM – Stash: or..
1:39 AM – Stash: you're Deserted in the Desert. Duhh.
1:40 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: two S's
1:40 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you
1:40 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and
1:40 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: the desert
1:40 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 😛
1:40 AM – Stash: loll
1:40 AM – Stash: ahhh.
1:40 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: what the fuck
1:40 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: are we talking about
1:40 AM – Stash: we should sleep in 7 minutes.
1:40 AM – Stash: we're going crazy.
1:40 AM – Stash: Wordplay.
1:40 AM – Stash: that's waht we're talking about.
1:40 AM – Stash: Wittyness.
1:40 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I wanted to talk more about other things
1:40 AM – Stash: ohhh, please do.
1:41 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but Ive completely forgotten
1:41 AM – Stash: LOll
1:41 AM – Stash: okay, well if it comes back
1:41 AM – Stash: write it down for later.
1:41 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: nah then it wont be
1:41 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: the same
1:41 AM – Stash: it might, you never know.
1:41 AM – Stash: =)
1:41 AM – Stash: oh
1:41 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: timing
1:41 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: is everything
1:41 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i missed it already
1:41 AM – Stash: and reread it up there, i'm sure some thoughts will come back.
1:41 AM – Stash: =) yep, that's why it'd be mroe difficult for me to Speak what i mean.
1:41 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you got time?
1:41 AM – Stash: i can't go back in time and read what i said.
1:41 AM – Stash: i got time
1:42 AM – Stash: i was just trying the Number Association thing
1:42 AM – Stash: 1:47
1:42 AM – Stash: you know
1:42 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: yeah
1:42 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
1:42 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: hmmmmmm
1:42 AM – Stash: my Student ID is 10747099
1:42 AM – Stash: i laughed.
1:42 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
1:42 AM – Stash: OH
1:42 AM – Stash: and other thing
1:42 AM – Stash: Ariel's number is like 369-9636
1:42 AM – Stash: almost perfect
1:43 AM – Stash: like her
1:43 AM – Stash: so to speak
1:43 AM – Stash: or at least
1:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thats so confusing
1:43 AM – Stash: symmetrical.
1:43 AM – Stash: srsly right?
1:43 AM – Stash: like her
1:43 AM – Stash: so confusing
1:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: cocoa puff
1:43 AM – Stash: Associations.
1:43 AM – Stash: CapnCrunch.
1:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: ima get you to say it watch
1:43 AM – Stash: OH
1:43 AM – Stash: rofl
1:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: youll never say serious again
1:43 AM – Stash: damn..
1:43 AM – Stash: maybe, eventually
1:43 AM – Stash: but anyway, this is your time
1:43 AM – Stash: Go on.
1:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: uhhhhhmmm
1:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: arent you tired
1:43 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: of hearing this?
1:44 AM – Stash: =) a little, but that's only because it's not new things that are said.
1:44 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: about
1:44 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: her
1:44 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: or rather
1:44 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: me
1:44 AM – Stash: there are new things about her i'm sure.
1:44 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: nothing new about her
1:44 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
1:44 AM – Stash: new things to say about the way you wish to feel.
1:44 AM – Stash: See, remember back when it's all a game?
1:44 AM – Stash: and that Pain is sorta like a .. side effect of playing?
1:45 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im definitely thinking too much
1:45 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I can feel differently about her each day
1:45 AM – Stash: if you are in pain, and you dislike it, you can very easily get rid of it, and still have the story and conflict to tell.
1:45 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: without even seeing/hearing from her at all
1:45 AM – Stash: mm
1:45 AM – Stash: well, please go on.
1:45 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Hmmm
1:45 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: idk where to start
1:45 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lets just say
1:45 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I fucked up
1:45 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 😀
1:46 AM – Stash: =) Well so long as that's not where the story ends, It's cool. =P
1:46 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Hmmm
1:46 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: no its how it all started
1:46 AM – Stash: and more wordplay, "Start, End"
1:46 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: different side of the same story
1:46 AM – Stash: splain'
1:46 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: well Ive been avoiding this fact
1:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: facts
1:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: rather
1:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I didnt have a girlfriend in high school
1:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I tell people I didnt want one
1:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: which is
1:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: partly true
1:47 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I was fine without a girlfriend
1:48 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: then like
1:48 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: she came along
1:48 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I was impatient
1:48 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: desperate maybe
1:48 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: though I never LOOK desperate
1:48 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: coz Im
1:48 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: cool
1:48 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: you know 😛
1:48 AM – Stash: =) Yes, you and I both.
1:48 AM – Stash: Stoic.
1:49 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so I overlooked the fact that
1:49 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: she just broke up with her bf
1:49 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: two rules I broke
1:49 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 1. she just got outa a long term relationship
1:49 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I was the rebound
1:49 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 2.
1:49 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: she was a friend
1:50 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i dated my friend
1:50 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Hmmmm
1:50 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: everything seemed great at the time you know
1:51 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I was
1:51 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: blinded
1:51 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: not to sound cliche
1:52 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: idk why Im thinking about this
1:52 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: maybe because I regret it
1:52 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and it sucks living with regrets
1:52 AM – Stash: =) you regret ever dating her?
1:53 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Not really but
1:53 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I could have done it differnetly
1:53 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: because I thought about the fact that
1:53 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: she was my friend
1:53 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: one of my best friends
1:53 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and only if I was honest about it
1:53 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and talked to her about it
1:53 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: because I was very well aware of the situation
1:54 AM – Stash: Do you want your friend back?
1:54 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: she just broke up with her bf
1:54 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and I knew that
1:54 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: yes
1:54 AM – Stash: aand you feel like you can be friends with her, even though you still like her?
1:54 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: no
1:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: well I dont know
1:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but it wouldnt have ended this way
1:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: This is all so depressing
1:55 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
1:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I coulda been more patient
1:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: dont wanna make it sound like a blam
1:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: blame
1:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but
1:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I let he play me
1:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: her
1:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: use me
1:56 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: o.o
1:57 AM – Stash: =) being used has caused you to hurt.
1:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: yes
1:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I wasjust going along because
1:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: it didnt sound too bad at all
1:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: at the time
1:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but you know
1:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: she needed somebody
1:57 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and i just happened to be around
1:58 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I did a good thing
1:58 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: for her
1:58 AM – Stash: =) did I ever tell you about Jessica?
1:58 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: no
1:58 AM – Stash: i'll tell you later, but go on.
1:58 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: idk its just
1:58 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I thought I knew so much
1:58 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: turns out
1:59 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I knew nothing at all
1:59 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: which is one of the reason why Ive been doubting myself a lot lately
1:59 AM – Stash: "=) It is better to know not so much, than to know a lot that isn't so"
1:59 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: exactly
1:59 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so now
2:00 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I dont know if I really know anything at all
2:00 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I used to think I was smart
2:00 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but now i start to think
2:00 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: maybe I was just
2:00 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: arrogant
2:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and Im sure I can find myself again
2:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: but there are so many other things going on
2:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: responsibilities
2:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and I dont have time to just think
2:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: scratch that
2:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I do have time to think
2:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: too much time
2:01 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: ~_~
2:02 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: see I dont even know what Im saying
2:02 AM – Stash: =) You don't have time you can use.
2:02 AM – Stash: Time that isn't tainted by thoughts.
2:02 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: not true
2:02 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I spend a great amount of time staring at myself in the mirror
2:02 AM – Stash: .. that's kinda vain. =)
2:02 AM – Stash: why?
2:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: yup
2:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: idk
2:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i have a big ass mirror in my room
2:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i cant avoid it
2:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: its the closet doors
2:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: they're mirrors
2:03 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: covers the whole wall
2:03 AM – Stash: well im sure you dont just.. stare at yourself.. for hours on end.
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: well I mean
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i can see myself right now
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: sitting here
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: the mirror reflects the whole room.. all i have to do is turn to look at it
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thats besides the point
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: because there is no point
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: <.<
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: what the fuck
2:04 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: go to sleep
2:05 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: lol
2:05 AM – Stash: lol..
2:05 AM – Stash: im on aim
2:05 AM – Stash: with someone.
2:05 AM – Stash: cuong
2:05 AM – Stash: lol
2:05 AM – Stash: hes a night owl
2:05 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im a night owl
2:05 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: i will say bye to you and still be on the computer for another 2 hours or something
2:06 AM – Stash: loll
2:06 AM – Stash: yeah, thats why i just dnt say bye sometimes =)
2:06 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I need to start producing
2:07 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I keep subscribing to people on youtube and deviantart
2:07 AM – Stash: =) you need to be Interesting.
2:07 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and I favorite a bunch of things
2:07 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: I have
2:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 1501 favorites
2:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: on youtube
2:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thats 1501 fucking videos I watched
2:08 AM – Stash: lmfao
2:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: watched more than once
2:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thats why I favorited them
2:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so i can watch them again
2:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: later
2:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: <_<
2:08 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: so I watched more than 1501 videos
2:09 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: and
2:09 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 67 pages of favorites on deviantart
2:09 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: 24 pieces each page
2:09 AM – Stash: dude, go MAKE something.
2:09 AM – Stash: you got the skills.
2:10 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: thats 1608 favorites?
2:10 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: yet I cant come to make anything
2:11 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: people say they procrastinate
2:11 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: pshhhhhhh
2:11 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: nothing compare to what I do <.<
2:11 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: the worst part is
2:11 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im aware of it
2:12 AM – Stash: woah wtf
2:12 AM – Stash: is your AIM okay?
2:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: idk why
2:12 AM – Stash: it says i'm the only one online
2:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: oh I use digsby
2:12 AM – Stash: yeah i'm on digsby
2:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: nah you're on
2:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: other people are on too
2:12 AM – Stash: whaat
2:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: anyway
2:12 AM – |DAWS+Q| Waa!: Im going to bed
2:13 AM – Stash: yeah
2:13 AM – Stash: go to sleep
2:13 AM – Stash: your mind will distract you

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AwkwardSilence

You know what i’ve learned? The world is a boring place.
Life is boring if there’s no conflict, thus the human drama and people wish to fight, have pain, get into situations where things are sticky. It makes things more interesting, more memorable, worth more.
That is not to say that Peace is an impossible goal, it’s just that humans do not wish for it, they wish for fun.
aand if you are partial to peace, then you are bound to be bored and alone. My suggestion: play the game and fight through conflicts like the rest of the world, but know it is only a game, set up by humans to pass their lives by, and that You are the one that makes the rules.

TrulyRevolutionaryInternet

i have an idea.
Stored internet.
saved bandwidth.
when you think about it, we all have Unlimited Internet.
it’s just the speed that’s capped.
and as you pay more, you get more speed.
but you can’t save it.
it has to be one at a time.
as you go.
on demand.
but what if you saved it?
sort of like, stored minutes on a cell phone.
internet on demand, without having to pull from the provider.
no limits on how much internet can be saved.
and then you think about when you’re not ON the computer, your internet connection can be pulling bandwidth.
while you’re asleep
or outside.
this way, there’s no need to worry about buffering issues, or high definition downloads.
if you have enough internet saved up, you can watch it all i one go.
sort of..
Downloading the Internet.
to use at a later timee
then you think about the Why.
well, it certainly helps the poor the most.
those with poor internet speed can now enjoy high quality videos and movies, because they can save the internet for when they need it.
We are not at the slave to the provider, merely a slave to the speed at which we can save.
then we think about the benefits this may have on the providers.
isps.
well for one thing, it’ll be a lot more of a strain on their servers, more people downloading at night for that very reason, because they are asleep.
but then, when you think about it..
people are all scrambling and spending money on faster broadband for America.
i’m sure that costs money. alot of money.
and i’m sure that goes to provide for the infrastructure of the internet.
we all thought we need more speed.
but maybe saving speed would be cheaper.
lately, there’s all this talk about net neutrality.
protecting the internet from unfair business prices.
aand unfair speeds.
this is true freedom.
9:52 PM – the freedom to keep what you bought.
instead of just renting it.
sort of like currency.
Internet is money.
and we get to spend it when we want to, insetad of having to go to the bank all the time.
the need for a bank, is the safety.
the value of the money, that people can take.
the thing is though, internet doesn’t need to be stolen.
but it does need to be protected.
but that’s not the gov’t’s job..
it’s our job.
the net is Neutral.
no one is fighting to steal it.
except for the coorporations.
everyone is benefited from the freedom it can bring.
except for those who have things to hide.
so, back to saving internet.
it’ll have to be Google.
Instead of striving to match the rest of the countries in Speed.
why not bring in something revolutionary?
the ability to save your internet.
because, instead of renting it, it is now Yours.
genius thought, eh mate?
though, i suppose some would still want speedier internet.
they can do both.
be TrulyRevolutionary.
TRInternet.
Trinternet.
daamn.
i’m a genius.
it’s three tiered too.
Save, Speed, and ..
Freedom.
or rather..
Ownership.
mm.
i’ll tweak it around, make an essay, send it off to Google.
aand I can see there’s a money making opportunity, you will charge for TRInternet.
Though i’d rather you find a way to provide it for free, instead of charging customers more for this feature.
sort of like an Unlocked Iphone that costs $800, instead give it to us for $0.
You will be the first.
You will break ground on History.
Think about all the good you can do.
all the simple happiness you can provide.
all the laughter you can bring when you let people watch a cat play a keyboard in high definition.
Ridiculous. that the internet is simply a tool of laughter, something the world needs.
tell me wwhat you think when you get back.